Who Will Like Me?
(Photo credit: dalbera) Well, I don't mean me as a person. I'm so sweet that everybody likes me. Well, maybe not everybody--there's....never mind about her--I'm probably in good company as far as that goes. But, what I'm saying is what if when I release my book nobody likes it?
I've got weird taste, or so think some people. My wife refuses to watch any more Fellini movies with me. She's suffered through a couple, but no more. Fellini is my favorite director and I love watching his films. In fact I can't find anyone to watch Fellini movies with me. His films are strange for sure, but that is what I like about them. Many people do like Fellini's films so I know I'm not totally alone, but not that many people like them.
In fact, there are a lot of movies that I really like or would like to see but I can't find anyone else who will be willing to share the viewing experience with me. Often, if I do manage to get my wife to watch one of the films that are a bit outre, she will fall asleep and I'll have to send her off to bed and finish watching it myself. And if she manages to stay awake she will be somewhat annoyed with me for having subjected her to such nonsense as what I like.
Same with my musical taste. Sometimes I'll put up a song on one of my blog sites thinking it's the greatest thing I've ever heard and I get a pretty tepid response. How could everyone not love some of this great music I like so much? A lot of my musical favorites are not appreciated by others. I've learned to keep my office stereo turned way down so as not to disturb my wife with my music. Yes, I tell you my musical tastes are not mainstream by any means.
Likewise with the literature that I like. I know that I read some fairly well acclaimed literature according to many critics, but Harry Potter it ain't. When I rave about something I've read, I don't usually get many enthusiastic "right ons" or "hey nows" in my comment sections. It's more like "oh, that's nice" or "never heard of it" and "have a nice life" or "you're invited to follow my blog". I'd like to get into a good discussion about some of the books I've read, but it's difficult to talk about something no one else is interested in.
Okay, I know I'm exaggerating somewhat and I'm probably being all pouty paranoid and stuff. But here's what I'm saying: What if I publish a book and everyone thinks it's too weird and boring? What if I like it but no one else does? What if I spend a day at a book signing table with 100 copies of my book and no one comes by and I'm sitting there reading my own book and enjoying the heck out of it? What if that happens?
On the positive side, if I'm enjoying the heck out of my own weird book, when I finish reading it I'll still have 99 more copies to read, all autographed to me.