We've been asked to tell something about ourselves in this round. I've got a whole blog related to that and if you want to know more about me you can visit my presently dormant memoir blog Wrote By Rote. The short story is that I've been blogging since 2009 writing about all kinds of stuff. I am the founder of the Blogging from A to Z April Challenge (yes, you can blame me for that). I sometimes may appear to lack direction but hopefully there is method to my madness.
And now for what's on my mind in this first #ISWG post of 2015:
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I've Got Nothing
Well, it finally happened. My computer had been faltering for near two years, maybe more, and on this past Monday morning it totally crashed. I got up in the morning and it was off and there was no way that I was able to turn it back on. I had nothing. Kaput. Dead.
Fortunately though, as I think I mentioned a few months ago, while I was with my mother in Tennessee last summer she let me have my late step-father's computer which had barely been used and is like new. It's a Lenovo. I've heard they're good, but I don't know much about such things. All I know is so far it works at lightning speeds compared to my old HP which I had purchased back in 2007. It served me fairly well and I liked it when it was working good, but I think I should have gotten better service in the long run.
The bad thing about my computer crash is that I now can't access my files on that HP hard drive. Fortunately I did back most important things on an external drive so all is not lost, but it is kind of a hassle for a computer dummy like me. In a way it's kind of like starting over. Maybe not such a bad thing, but so far I'm not sure. Right now I'm so astounded by my ability to work faster that I'm not yet noticing a lot that might be missing from my new computer and what programs I'll have to re-install or things that I'll need to add back into these files. No biggie for the time being and for now I've got other fish to fry. In fact, tomorrow I'm fixing tilapia for dinner--but now I'm digressing into silliness.
Back to Monday though when I was brooding over losing my computer and everything in it and trying to avoid what to me was a daunting task of setting up this Lenovo, I began to contemplate on what might happen if I had nothing as related to my writing. Over the years I've accumulated all of these near finished novels and notes for possible books. I've got stories, essays, poetry, and songs that are waiting for me to act upon them. And I've got nothing to show for any of this other than a small file of rejection letters from many years ago. What the heck am I doing anyway?
Sometimes I fantasize--or maybe it's more like a nightmarish fixation--about scrapping everything. Throwing away everything that I've ever written, outlined, or scribbled notes about. Good-bye massive accumulations of paper and amassed computer files hidden away in these machines I have around the house. Perhaps I should begin anew and forget everything that ever came before.
No, that's not me. I am the eternal pack rat. The hoarder who files my life in cabinets, boxes, and stacks in closets and on desks. I've got a lot of stuff, but nothing tangible to show for it. I've got my blog and that's something I guess. And since this is nobody's fault but my own I probably should just shut up about it. Maybe I can drag everything into my writing office and immerse myself in papers like a pig wallowing in the mud.
Actually I'm probably making all this sound worse than it really is, but it's #IWSG day and I wanted to come up with some drama--a seemingly insurmountable situation of insecurity. Insecurity of epic proportions--a writer's worst nightmare. Losing everything. Having nothing.
In addition to all this, my most recent Battle of the Bands post used the song "I Got Plenty O' Nuttin'" and I'm still taking votes on the readers' favorite versions. It's a heck of a contest right now but I'd still like to get more votes on it. If you haven't visited the post and cast your vote please click on this link. I've gotten a lot of votes so far, but being avaricious about my BOTB posts I want to get as many votes as I can.
Yeah, I'm terrible I know using this #IWSG post to promote my BOTB post. But there is truth in this post and I really am insecure about having nothing and all that rot. In fact, I am assuredly insecure about everything. Sorry about my shameless plug. I didn't mean to shamelessly promote anything here.
Oh, and by the way, sign-ups for the Blogging from A to Z April Challenge begin on January 26. I'm not promoting anything, I'm just saying it. Who me--promote? Would I ever do such a thing?
Do you ever think about just shucking it all and starting over from scratch? What do you know about Lenovo computers? Are you planning to join us for the A to Z Challenge in April?